So many signs…think this will be the last one

 I guess I’ll make it short. Anything else is a waste of time

Coworker has a wedding. The invitation is only for you because as people decline they invite a coworker. And the only reason another coworker gets to bring his wife is because it’s a mutual invite.

And that’s not even what stands out because I understand people sometimes have to go to weddings alone. But somehow, several more coworkers got an invite, but never a wife of coworker which as many weddings I’ve been to, is very unusual.

But somebody that really loved his wife or a spouse would have asked. “Would it be OK if my wife would join if you have anybody else drop out”? But why would you care if I go. You never told me you wished I was going. You never said you would ask if a spot opened up if I could go. 

You never mentioned anything of the sort. Because you’ve never noticed me for anything. I have no clue why anybody would inflict the pain that you have caused on me. 

You asked me how you look when you come out all dressed up. What am I supposed to say? Give you the same compliment you’ve given to me over the course of nearly 4 years, four years we’ve been married. Which is nothing aside from looks like fun, have a good time? Never once not in all the nice pictures could you give me any kind of compliment. So at least I can say I appreciate your honesty. Because it’s rare.

Maybe the day will never come that you regret the choices you’ve made. Maybe you will look back and realize this was a big mistake on your part also. For the good person in Me I hope that’s the case. For the hurt person in me I hope you get exactly what you’ve given me.

But the one thing you will never be able to say to yourself, that you were not given chances over and over in years of chances.

You just never cared. 




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