Let the sluts begin.....

 Intuition is strong.  But so can be paranoia.  But a zebra never looses his stripes.  People get comfortable if you wait long enough.  People get lazy and slip up and that's how they get caught if they care and try not to.  

But it started a few months ago, little things....out longer at night with phone....switching off a screen quickly.  Once I saw a reflection across the table from his glasses of something that looked of sluts sense.  Why would I expect him to change? Well, I don't. And I didn't. Because at this age, most of us are who we are. Can habits stop? Absol-Fucking-lutly .  But that only happens when YOU the person wants to change for YOU.  So knew. In time.

I found these in his phone.  I know what you may be thinking.....his phone is private and I invaded his privacy.  Had I confronted husband #2, he would have blew the fuck up that I went through his phone pics. It's never his fault.  It's my fault.  He never does anything wrong, "If you look hard enough you will find something" he has said. No, in fact you wont.  When you have nothing to hide, there is nothing there.  So it's nice to see that he is back on onlyfans. com , likely on ticktok to she the boater girls.  But what really irks me is he is doing this while I am out hustling for money for vacation with him, or at work.  Nice.

But the BIGGEST INSULT of all, is he is paying.  So while I am out hustling, he's paying to see sluts.  WHO AND THE FUCK in this day in age PAYS to see stuff that is FREELY on pornhub, google?  What kind of fucking loser pays?  My husband #2 is that fucking loser.

Yesterday on the way home from hustling he messages "can you pick me up a beer"? Instant irritation. But I obliged.  Came home, didn't see that he had bought any. Literally no beer can anywhere. Thought it was odd he wanted me to pick one up when that is a typical after work start.  But then it began.  His excitability while we were out back about everything from work, government taxes, beating a dead horse over and over, talking loud fact, irritation.  It's absolutely annoying. But yet I found no evidence he had a beer so I just sat quietly than we went inside.  We ate, than he began commentating the the TV show we were watching. Another God awful thing he does after 4 normal cans of beer.  It's not even worth watching TV when he keeps commentating.  So, hide the beer, be a dumbass , a desperate pathetic dumbass and ask wife to pick up one.

I headed to bed while he went out and smoked.  I checked PNC and saw there was 2 charges for $1.28 can of beer today.    He came in the bedroom and I said "Did you go to the foodmart today also"? He said "Marathon" (that was a charge also, probably gas) I said "no the Indian place"? He said "Yea why". I said "Just wanted to make sure I wasn't charged twice for a can of beer".  With irritation he snapped "Well, I wanted another beer later, it was hot all day and just wanted another".

Never fucking again am I picking up beer. Fuck him. He can go buy his own. 

He got in the shower, and that's when I looked at his photogallery and sure enough....Zebras never change their stripes.  So instead of working on fixing that last 3 years. instead of addressing no passion for 1.5 years, he's putting it into online sluts....and paying.

I've reached out to my prior divorce attny.  I'm getting things lined up. I'm done. I will pay this game because frankly, like G said. I've already checked out. I don't even care that hes doing it.

I'm a beautiful woman with a nice body, I am fun, I am kind, I am loyal, I have plenty of friends. And I've never had a problem meeting men. A very special man is in my future. For this is kind, caring, Loyal, healthy..mentally and physically.  He is a driven individual who looks at ME.  Who sees me and nothing attached to me, but some quirks.  This man will love all of me. Be my best friend, my soul mate, my lifeline.  This is my future.  Where I am now is a wakeup call.