Nov 1st goodbye




I don’t know why I foolishly think you will change. 
At almost midnight on Friday the 27th, exactly 4 years from the day you sent me a text that I thought in hindsight soon after would be my life mate, lover and husband. But 4 years later after that. 2 years of marriage, you signed up for this lovely loser slut site. Flirting Neighbors. 

Tell me how you always picked me.
Tell me how you only want me.
Tell me again this…..



Funny isn’t it? You just think I’m a fucking idiot.  

You have never, not once fought for me, or even tried for us. So when you are sitting alone, like that bullshit you used in our wedding vowels, “I would come home to a empty house, and I thought that would be my life , that I would be lonely and die alone”

Remember those words. I truly believed them to be true. But I also believed your love for me so maybe it was all a lie. But I’m case you meant just that. Remember you had me. I gave all of me to you and yo us. And you showed me over and over and OVER how you felt about me. And that was never as your wife. 


You. Picked. THIS. 

Today, I officially quit you in my heart. I’m done.

When I come home tomorrow it all changes what is scattered as last minute hopes for us. They are done. I’m letting them go. I let you go, because I was hanging on all the while you were not even looking at us. 



 

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