So you can do things you want to do and not...How about that

 For nearly 3 years our lack or zero passion was a topic, in 2021 you would only attempt to make changes are my bitch whining and pleading. As I began to accept you weren't attracted to me, I let go slowly.  In March of 2023, after our February Jamaica trip where you said "we'd be us again in Jamaica", well that shit ship sailed further away.....I said to you twice, two weeks apart, once at home, once in the car that if things didn't change passion wise, you'd push me to cheat. Not a fucking thing changed.  Can't say that too many people that love their spouse, want there spouse, certainly don't want them to cheat would do nothing. But that's exactly what you did. As time marched on I stopped doing things, and you happily let them go. Kisses, sitting on your lap, hugs, holding hands, you just let it go with me. In that time I've found porn and girl shots, so again, it's not you don't want it, you don't want it from me. Partial messages from a chick at work, most things don't add up, but you not wanting me as a romantic partner has added up.

I asked twice now in text for you to stop the insulting "dog like kisses" you give me. I know you don't want to, I feel that.  So just took asking you twice to stop and you did. Isn't that fucking amazing. When you want something you do it, and you can stop also. JUST. LIKE. THAT.

I've needed hugs, that's who I am.  Maybe you are not or maybe you get them from someone else. But I  need a hug, a touch, something. Not even sexual. Yesterday I asked in Text if I can get a hug, you said "I'll hug you anytime baby". No hug ever came yesterday. Why would it, you don't want it. And I am not going to ask.

There are days I'm not sure this will work as even friends and roommates. Just to hard.  And why the fuck do I want to be a maid here

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